xxFallenxx

Alright here's my new poem I wrote today. I want honest opinions, I feel it needs work, but I'm not sure where. Okay then...


I hate everything about her
her smile, her laugh, her charm
and yet somehow she pulls me in
Those ice blue eyes pierce my soul
Making a shiver course my entire body
A dark secret that not even I can hold
She ignores me from day to day
Alone in the world is how she makes me feel
One glance in my direction and I'm weak
Slowly my resolve is crumbling
I can't stop it, I enjoy it too much
The pain she makes me feel is bliss
Don't let her go, my heart says
And still she holds me in her power
Facades do nothing to protect me from her
She knows me inside and out, more than I do
Continuously I fall for her lies and deceit
This pain is all that keeps me company now
Over time she'll leave and I'll still love her
My heart just can't let her go
And I know she'll always live on with me

Pretty sappy I know. Just leave a comment!


xxFaythxx

Mother


Mother,

I wish I could cry

To you again

Proclaim fears,

My sins

I wish I didn’t feel this way

Mother,

Why can’t life

Be simple like it once was?

Can’t you hold me

In your arms?

Can’t you tell me

Everything will be okay?

Mother?



xxFaythxx

P.S. There is more I can write to this if anyone is interested, let me know and I'll write it up.

Harmful addiction will cause me to be alone    

 

 

xxFaythxx

Some new poetry...had a vision in my head last night that I had in my head and I had the poem in my head, but it got changed since I didn't write it down last night but during Chemistry today and some of it was altered so yeah lol. Whelp here it is....

Untitled

Crystal clear eyes
Stare at
an icy sky
Cotton clouds
rain down
freezing snowflakes
melting on warm skin
Distant eyes
gaze skyward
toward Heavenly bliss
an image forms
thanks to smoky clouds
A girl
Hair of a raven
Eyes shades of grass and bark
Skin snowy pale
And yet
a genuine smile on her lips
Outward streched hands
meet for a second
as tears are briefly shed
A vow is made
a lovers' pact
forever won't be
long enough

Yeah, that's it. Thanks. Bye!!

 

 

xxFaythxx

Yeah, just as the title says. Not gonna bother with introductions...it's untitled like usual. Here ya go lol....


Delicate touches
light caresses
Simply teasing
Blood begins to pound
lust circulated throughout
Decisions made quickly
Choices not brash
Trust placed solely
on a lover's shoulders
Lightly teasing
harshly thrusting until the end
Spriraling down from the high
Panting, needing, breathing air
Eyes meet, sloppy kisses exchanged
Words whispered between two soulmates
Confessions, yet not very secret
Telling each other's passion
the words echo around the room
"I love you..."


Ha, alright that's it...I have a feeling I'm not gonna need to write any more racy poetry for a while lol...Whelp till later...

 

xxFaythxx

I know I write way too much, and lately I've been writing some very....racy poetry. Don't ask why, I don't know. Maybe it's the fact that I haven't gotten laid in forever, but whatever the reason, it's showing in my writing. I'm scared now lol. J/k...ok well onto the "untitled" poem....

Sweaty bodies
a lovers' dance
feelings on display
vulnerability forgotten
Passion overflowing
Lust taking control
Temperatures rising
Climbing to new heights
Urgency and need building
Until the end
Falling from the high
Only received from
a lovers' ride.

Seriously, I'll say it again, don't ask. I have no idea what I'm on today. Maybe it was the cherry coke i had a bit ago lol. Oh well...laters!

 

 

xxFaythxx

You're always waiting
to catch me if I fall
Always there by me
Standing tall
Anytime I need you
Any time at all
You're always there
Always being first
I stand above them all
With you beside me
I can do anything at all

I seriously don't know ne more what I'm writing...I've been getting hit with random inspiration. I'm starting to turn into screaming_003 with her random drabbles cept for mine is poetry lol.

 

 

xxFaythxx

Hey hey hey, got some new random poems for you guys to read. Once again I'm too lazy to come up with a title for them so they're just gonna be called "Untitled" like usual. I should make a compilation of them. Hmm, I wonder what that would look like lol. Oh well, on to the poetry I guess....



Untitled #1

Staring at the blinding sun
feeling it dry my tears
Listening to the sounds around me
Whispering what my next move would be
Walking from that spot
I gave up on you forever



Untitled #2
Kinda racy, still not sure why I wrote this or felt the need to, but I did <<

Craving your touch
that brought warmth
to my heart of ice
Wanting to feel your lips
pressed roughly against mine
full of passion and lust
Seeking to be near you
feeling your body linger
highly over my own

Okay, that's enough of the racy random poetry of mine...heh heh....comments are always welcome and appreciated lol. Okay then, laters!

 

 

xxFaythxx

Wrote them the Friday night before everyone left for a Yu-gi-oh thing in columbus and when I got home the next morning lol....so yeah, they're not my best work altho everyone says they are lol....

Poem #1

Crying in the darkness
alone as always
Hoping that someone would see
See the real me
Behind these lies
These masks I constantly wear
All I want
is for you
to find me

Poem #2

Do I dare break my word?
Destroy the silent vow between us.
Should I tell him what I'm thinking?
Inform him of what his kisses do to me.
Oh, how his kiss brought about thoughts
ones people would consider treason.
They promised a life of happiness
A future of being treated like the Queen I am.
Could I simply utter the words?
The words bitterly sit on my tongue.
Perhaps I should just swallow them,
along with my voice, it shall be gone.
Maybe I should just give into my desire
The lust simply pounding in my veins.
But I could never end things with you
My heart beats strongly when you're around.
So what should I do?
What'll be my next move?
Will I give in and be a whore,
or will I end things and be miserable?
The answer never comes,
when the words never leave my tongue.

Whelp that's my new additions to my poetry collection...hope u like them....whelp laters

 

xxFaythxx

Got some new poems...I wrote them last night at Yuki-chan's house...alright well the first is untitled, so for now I'm calling it Untitled...

 

 

 

 

The second poem is entitled Good-bye...

 

 

Alright Yuki-chan it's late at night but you better be happy with this new installment of my story...um dun mind towards the end i hate writing that stuff << lol....i know how u were talking about how much u missed it and i just got hit in the head with inspiration in the middle of the night so yea...here's ur update lol ^^

 

 

 

I swallowed and she nodded, quickly turning around again and heading off to the other end of the mall. Stumbling after her, I watched as Angeline’s walk became tense, almost as if she were angry on the inside.

 

 

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It seemed as if Angeline would remain angry with me for my earlier comment. Even after we arrived home, she still acted if my statement had somehow offended her. Angeline had taken to retreating to her bathroom for the moment. I was left reeling with thoughts in my head. Why would she get that angry over something so small? I continuously wondered that and many other thoughts. The strongest one among them being what time was right for telling her my feelings. Why did loving someone have to be so complicated?

 

I sighed and decided to follow Angeline to her bathroom. If I had caused this problem, then maybe, just maybe I could fix it. Lightly I knocked on the closed door, listening as I heard water running. My only guess was that she was going to take a shower, but I could not figure out why she would be taking one in the middle of the afternoon after we had just arrived back from the mall. I knocked again, this time louder than before, and listened to the noises on the other side of the door.

 

Bitterly, I heard Angeline reply to my knocking, “Go away; I want to be alone right now.”

 

Once again, I knocked, informing her that I was not giving up so easily on this cause. Finally, I heard the water in the bathroom stop and I heard the lock on the other side give way. Turning the knob, I opened the door to find Angeline sitting on the closed toilet seat lid, her face in her hands. Gradually, I made my way towards her, advancing with the utmost caution. When I was within touching range, I gingerly placed my hand on her shoulder, feeling it shake underneath my gentle touch. Slowly, Angeline turned to face me, her face tearstained.

 

I was taken aback by this. Normally it was I who was the crying mess, but today it was the other way around. Today I was the one who was supposed to do the comforting. Swiftly, I wrapped my arms around her, listening as she started sobbing into my shoulder. Gently, I began stroking her back in a soothing manner and started whispering calming words. Gradually I could feel her tears start to slow, and eventually she looked up at me through eyes foggy with remaining tears.

 

Slowly I leaned my head down, and started kissing away the tears. At that moment, with all her imperfections showing to me, and the fact that she couldn’t hide anything from me then, I realized that this second would cause me to love her even more, if that was possible. I could hear a shocked gasp escaper her lips and I realized what I had just done. Silently, I cursed myself for taking advantage of a perfectly sweet moment, and wondered how I would ever fix, let alone explain, this incident. Gradually, she started backing away from me, fear clearly etched onto her perfect features, and I wondered why she would be so scared by me. Then it dawned on me: Angeline did not feel that way about me. I knew she did not and yet I continuously led myself to believe that there might have been a slight chance that she did love me.

 

Reluctantly, I released Angeline from my grasp and watched as she stood and moved as far away from me as possible. I watched as she constantly kept her eyes focused on me, watching my every move, wondering what I would do next. Sitting down on the toilet seat just as Angeline had been doing, I glanced up at her and let out a heavy sigh. I guess I had found the “perfect moment” to explain my feelings towards her.

 

“Angeline, I need to talk to you,” I started lamely.

 

“Just stay away from me, Jasmine. I don’t know what you’re thinking, but just keep away from me,” She retorted bitterly. It felt almost as if a knife had been shoved in my heart and twisted when she uttered those words. That was it. That was all I needed to hear.

 

“Angeline,” I started again, slowly advancing towards her.

“Jasmine, I swear to God if you take one more step towards me, I will fight you,” She shot at me, a glare suddenly forming in her eyes. Immediately I stepped back and held my hands up, admitting defeat. Quickly my eyes glanced towards the floor. I do not think I could utter my next statement while staring at her.

 

“I love you, Angeline,” I whispered and stood still, waiting to hear her reply.

 

There was an audible gasp and my eyes glanced up, watching as Angeline slowly started sliding towards the floor, her hand covering her mouth. It hurt me not being able to rush over to her aid and comfort her, but I knew she did not want me touching her right now. Slowly, I made my way towards the door of the bathroom, planning to go back to our shared bedroom to grab my stuff and leave. Right when I was heading out the door, Angeline’s voice stopped me.

 

“Jasmine, please wait.”

 

I turned around and looked at her, not knowing what to expect next. She gradually got to her feet again and found her balance. Walking towards me, my eyes went wide. I did not know what was going to happen next, but whatever it was, I was preparing for it. For all I knew she was going to either slap me or tell me to leave or both. When she reached me, she lightly cupped my cheek and I leaned into her sensual touch. Oh, how I was going to miss this when I left. I closed my eyes, savoring this moment because I knew no more would come after this.

 

Then the last thing I expected happened: she kissed me. Angeline kissed me. It was a petal soft kiss, almost as if there was no anger between the two of us. My eyes opened to the size of saucers before slowly drifting closed to relish this moment. Gradually my lips began to work against hers, a battle beginning between our mouths. Lightly she bit my bottom lip, causing a gasp to escape my mouth, giving her the perfect chance to slip her tongue inside my mouth. It was slow and sensual, and slowly I felt the world around us fade away until it was just Angeline and me. Our tongues began sliding against one another, both of us trying to win dominance. I could feel myself starting to lose the battle, and personally, I did not care. I was just happy that Angeline was not mad at me. Eventually the time for air came, and reluctantly I parted from her warm, inviting mouth.

 

“Jasmine, I have a confession to make. I-I love you, too,” She whispered, her lips mere centimeters from mine. Her breath was soft on my lips, and I could feel the petal softness of those light pink lips with every word she spoke.

 

xxFaythxx

Just another poem...I wrote it last night when I was upset about somethings with my b/f and me lol...alright well here it is...be nice as always with comments.

You told me there'd be no secrets
Between you and I
But now I know that isn't true
It was just another lie
You found many ways
To avoid what I asked
Eventually I just gave up
I let everything pass
For awhile now
That method had worked
No one was ever angry
Nobody ended up hurt
But now it's different
I can't allow this to slide
All the secrets between us
Will cause someone to cry
I'm only speaking now
Because it's my part
These aren't made up words
They're coming from the heart
Things between us
Will only get worse
Until one of us
Ends up in a herse
Don't make me beg
For you to listen to me
Just listen to the words
So we won't have to be sorry

I was in a rhyming mood last night apparently lol

 

xxFaythxx

Just wrote a new poem really quick...nuttin special just some of my feelings needing to be captured by words lol..Kk well here it is....


Can't I just be normal?
Why must I constantly be tormented,
by a former love and a hidden passion?
The desire burns strongly,
all I want is to make you mine.
Seeing you together drives me insane,
yet what right do I have to intervene?
I could never take away your happiness,
even if it's with him and not me.
If I barged in now,
how many people would hate me?
I'll stand here in the shadows, watching,
letting go of you forever...

 

 

xxFaythxx

Alright you guys, seriously, I'm starting to get pissed off on somethings. I'm really wondering what is the point in caring about half this crap anymore. It's not like anyone really even cares enough about me to pay attention to realize that something is wrong with me and that I'm seriously upset. I guess I was wrong when I considered them friends of mine. It's really sad in a way. I mean hell my b/f doesn't care about me, he only cares where his "japanese friend" is. Yuki cares more about the people over at her house and doesn't care where I'm at. I mean hell I could probably get into an accident and die and no one would notice. Yeah, I know I shouldn't talk like that, but I just can't help it! How do you think I f*cking feel right now? I'm not exactly happy and I'm extremely depressed. None of my "friends" care about me like I thought they did. Apparently I don't rank high enough on they're "Caring list" to get their attention. Well fine then, that suits me fine. I'm getting sick of this crap personally and if that's how it's going to be, then let it be that way. I'm done. I'm over it. So yeah, I'll see you guys later...

 

xxFallenxx

Hey just gotta new poem for ya'll to check out...it's on my livejournal but i decided to post it here too so yea here ya go...

 

 

 

 

there ya go...leave nice comments lol....

 

xxFaythxx

Hey you guys...well I figured no one reads this ne more so what really is the point in keeping it up to date? lol...ne ways just wanting to say sorry for not updating w/ my stories or journal entries lol....well just keep in touch...love ya's!!

 

xxFaythxx

So i figured i haven't updated in forever so i'd just give u a little update on what's been happenin w/ me lately...even tho I still stole this from my lj i decided to put it on here too lol...

 

 

Wow today was a really sucky day....I thought that it would be a great day since it was the actual last day of skewl but no...it had to suck...MAJORLY!!

When I was heading to homeroom this morning I was just like leave me alone to everybody b/c i'm sooo not a morning person...then when i get up there my friend Adam is sitting there so i sit down next to him and he just randomly slugs me in the arm! So i hit him back, maybe a little more than necessary, but I defended myself. Then my boyfriend came to homeroom and barely showed me any attention, like that's something new...tch..is it just me or are all guys like that? Etto...besides the gay guys lol.

So then after homeroom I had to go to Health and we were playing a review game for exams and I wanted to win today since i lost yesterday. Of course, with it being the first period of the day, I wasn't paying attention so I got out like on an easy question...i hate that class so much, i'm so glad I'm exempt. ^_^ So then after that, english was pretty much okay besides the shakespeare movie we were watching lol!

Then comes adv. bio., my fave class of the day (tch yea right) and I was just NOT in the mood to listen to him talk so yea I just basically tuned him out. Then I had to go to Latin...what fun lol. Actually I do like Latin it's just with it being the end of the year I don't feel like listening or paying attention. So yea that class went by fast ne ways...

Next was social studies...that went okay at the beginning cept for I was almost late b/c i had stayed behind to talk to my Latin teacher..that crackhead XD lol....and so i stopped to talk to Yuki-chan for a bit in class then had to sit down. So off to lunch we went eventually and OMG my b/f sat there and kept making fun of me. I figured he meant it as a joking way but he wasn't acting like it so i took it all personally and hit him hard in the arm and he got all pissed at me. I didn't mean to hit him THAT hard it just came out that way since i was pissed. He kept saying i had a moustache!! What would you have done??...so then for the rest of lunch and social studies he kept acting cold to me and wouldn't talk to me and got all pissy about it...I wanted to apologize, but it was more his fault than mine. I care about how i look and I didn't exactly like how he made fun of me and my looks....So I don't know if he's still mad at me or not today...so i'm kinda really upset about it all. And the fact that I'm also seeing shit (prolly cuz of all the stress i've been under) like my kitten (R.I.P) and stuff...I think one of these days I'm gonna have a mental breakdown...and it won't be pretty. Well I think i'm gonna head outie..so i'll write later.

xxFallenxx

So yea I've been gettin yelled at for awhile to get a myspace account so the other day I finally did lol...hopefully ppl will check it out and leave me some msgs and stuff lol....well here's the link if u wanna check it out lol....

 

 

have fun w/ that lol.....yea later...XOXOXOXO

 

 

xxFaythxx